There's a great quote in the movie "Baby Mama" when Maura Tierney's character grabs her little boy by the arm as he is walking past and says, "Is that poop, or chocolate?" Then, she licks him and smiles with a divine sense of relief: "Chocolate." Tina Fey's character is mortified.
If I had to choose a camp, I'd probably say I was more of a Tina Fey in this situation ... or at least I
was ... once ... before I had children.
See, I hate the word "poop." Anyone who knows me well can attest to that. I don't like the word, and quite frankly, if it weren't part of bein' alive, I could totally go without it altogether. Truth be told, I am cringing every time I have to write the Godforsaken word right now. Poop. [Shudder.] Instead, I guess I just find creative ways to avoid saying it ... at all. Ever.
But here's the thing: Poop is a main character in my life right now.
[Warning: Do not continue reading if you also shudder at the word, thought, existence, idea of poop]
Every day, when Henry has to "go," he calls me into the bathroom. "I'm ready!" he says. I sigh. I huff. And then up the stairs I trundle to clean him. That's right people. If you don't have kids ... you actually do have to teach a child to wipe. Not only that, but you gotta teach him how to do it properly, cuz if you don't you find yourself watching him in the middle of a public place sticking his hands down the back of his pants repeatedly, walking funny and - moment of silence for the suffering - realizing there's poop on his hands.
For now, I will happily accept my wiping duties if it means avoiding public poop (a whole other post ...).
And, of course, all the parenting experts say that we are supposed to embrace poop. "Good job!" ... "Look what you did!" ... "Yay!" .. clapping, high-fives (if you dare), hugs while holding your nose. I mean, you're not even supposed to say "goodbye" to the poop when you flush for fear it will traumatize your child that something is lost and gone forever to an unknown destination. Poop for toddlers. Apparently it's supposed to be a huge celebration.
And for me it's such a challenge. But I do it. I grab the two wipes (which, by the way I am instructed to do every time - no more, no less), and I wipe the child. Every day. He's four. That's a lot of poop wiping. [Shudder.]
It's a beautiful thing when your child becomes potty-trained. Because you both really work your you-know-what off to get there. But, really, it doesn't end there.
Let's take today as another example. For whatever reason, my sweet, distracted boy got so wrapped up in playing that he didn't make it to the toilet in time. He doesn't tell me ... he just keeps playing. I say, "You smell like poop." He doesn't make eye contact. "No," he says. "Sister smells like poop." Keeps driving the Cadillac Escalade around the floor of the baby's room.
Well, there is a distinct difference in the smell of baby poop versus big boy poop. I know he's pooped. I know the fate that awaits me. My blood starts to race through my veins. I feel I could really lose it (and have a few times). But, really, I can't ... because as discussed above: Poop is a celebration of life!
"Henry, let me check." Squirm, run, tackle, pull down ... "Gosh-a-roo!" I say, but kind of mean. "Honey, you need to remember that when you feel like you have to go, you gotta stop whatever you're doing and go. I know it's hard, but you have to."
I scoop him up, legs flailing, smelling atrocious, and I carry him to the bathroom.
"Let's see what we've got here." Off come the pants.
And there it is: Poop. Up the back, down the legs and everywhere in between. I try and wipe it with baby wipes to no avail. It's sticky. Like tar. That stuff does not come off easy. And it stains his skin. Not only that, but somehow everything smells like poop. The light switch smells like poop. And is that poop on the bath mat? Holy Mary, Mother ...
"You need to get in the shower," I tell him.
"NO!" he shouts, as if I am piercing him with needles. "I don't wanna, mama." After what seems like a half an hour battle of wills, I promise him a piece of Easter candy if he gets in the tub. Because when it's poop, you bribe. You bribe the sun if you have to. But you bribe. Still: "NO! NO! NO!"
"Well, tough nuggets, mister." And again, I'm scooping up all 36-lbs. of him, legs flailing ... this time, poopy legs. In the tub, bath running. Scrubbing. Crying. Thinking I am gonna need to rewash that tub when I see the remnants of poop floating around. [Shudder.] But I'm smiling ... because poop is a natural and happy part of being you!
"It's not a big deal, Henry. Accidents happen," I tell him as I wash him. But I am a mom and I value my future sanity, so I add: "Just remember: Next time, you need to stop playing if you feel you have to 'go.'"
He nods while crying ... still.
Ten minutes later, he's dressed again. He's clean. The poopified materials have been quarantined.
Poor sister Sadie has been in her crib the whole time. And, no joke, I walk in and she smells like poop. I smile, and she smiles her super-sweet two-tooth grin back at me. I scoop her up.
"Hey, beautiful bear! Did you poop? Are you a poopy sister? You and your brother are on the same schedule! Congratulations!" Commence baby talk about poop for a few minutes more, clean up curiously-colored poop. She laughs. I laugh. Henry laughs: "Sister pooped!" It's a grand poop party ... because poop is awesome!
Wash hands. Everyone. Again. Just for good measure.
Finally, we're all back downstairs.
"Where's my candy?" Henry asks. Right. Of course, there's a reward for this.
"Here's some of your chocolate bunny! I am so proud of you for listening to mommy and taking a bath." I break off part of the bunny's belly and put it on a napkin for him.
Henry smiles. Sadie smiles because Henry is smiling. Everyone is happy.
I grab another napkin to wipe my hands. I spot some brown matter in my finger nails. "Is that poop, or chocolate?!"
Well, I guess a part of me will always be the Tina Fey. Because I wasn't taking any risks ... I scrubbed my nails like there was no tomorrow.
Always assume: It's poop. [Shudder.]